You know it tears me up inside to see the feelings that you hide.

Earth hour what? Haha fine, I might not be an environmentalist, but I try my best not to litter and conserve electricity k! :) Well, at least the lights were out at my house during earth hour, but I was out having dinner at gardens with my family.

On another note, my hair is so unmanageably short now gahh.

Thinking of buying hair extensions clip ins but Im not sure whether it would look natural enough. Hmmmmm...




Kinda scary right, putting someone elses hair on your head. Dont know where the hair originated from.. eeeyer.

Look what picture lihong just sent me online.





Lol, my very own brand name. LCM hahaha what the heck. It should come with the line, "Looks good, taste good." LOL wth.

I miss you laaaaa! Glad you're having the time of your life now and all the freedom u can possibly want. :)



And you guys too!

My dad just lectured me. Again. Damn it. Im being forced to go to the library tomorrow. Poor me :(

Bed is where the heart is.

Its time to rest. Definitely.

Was out at Zouk’s 5th Anniversary last Thursday. Pretty happening yo!

But not gonna say much, let the pictures do the talking. Oh yea, didnt take any pics that night, stole them all from fb.

Met many new faces and a lot of familiar faces too.

I guess zouk was pretty happening that night. Was room hopping from phuture, to bar sonic, zouk and velvet. Lap sap was playing at zouk (the crowd went wild!), Mambo Jambo at Velvet, RnB at Phuture (that was hot!) <3

And mind you, the girls present there were sizzling hotttttt!

Came home with my back aching and ear buzzing =(( Oohh.

Thanks for the invites, josh :)

And to top things up, the next night was spent at poppy.

Bad idea. What a disappointing night, if you get what I mean ; )

Andrewwwwwww so long no seee….

As for the week before that, it was night out with my girls at poppy.

Tell me, why am I always there on a weekly basis? That placed is filled with zombiesssss ahhh!

The obligatory toilet shot.

Sharon!

Yup, i guess its time to rest.

Oooooh and I just got a haircut today. bad idea. short short short.

I wanna meet Mystery.

"Pa, can give me 10k, I'll go to genting and come back a millionaire."

"And you'll come back without your underwear"

=.=

I've been watching PUA for the past 2 days, 2 seasons now. Pretty sick of the pickup thing though, its kinda boring after a while. love kosmo, love matt.

I'm procrastinating again but this time, its gonna be different. Gonna write down a list of things I should accomplish and do to motivate myself.

What's the meaning of life? hmm.


xxxx.

Its 5 am now. Leave me alone in the room with the webcam and this is what you'll get.



Lol let me syok sendiri for a while.

xxx.


✭.....heart, kamen ❤ said (1:27 AM):

*how come u ppl...state of mind..so strong

well, darling, you see, if you want to be strong, you have to WANT TO BE strong. Talk is cheap. Yes I've gone through shit, and it just took me like, a month to get over a heartache. That period was hell, but you shouldnt wallow in self pity. There's more to life than relationships.

And if the person you mentioned about is sooo godly, he wouldnt even put you in this situation in the first place. Trust me, once you get through this, it will feel as though everyday is saturday. Life has so much more to offer. Look at me, I hardly emo anymore, except abt things regarding my studies. And when you're not emo, you'll emit this glow, a good aura. And this will attract people towards you. Its true!

I'm not worried about guys. I'm surrounded by them. HAHAH JK. Just have a little faith dear.

xxx.

Our yc/foos session last weekend.

The poserrrsss!

Linda bebe and I hehehe. Wah my eyes damn bengkak. I prolly didnt sleep again the night before.




Have some mam mam. Wahhh I damn hungry when I look at this pic. The fried chicken which I soooo crave for. And dnt forget, the classic cheese cake from sr, not alexis xin. lol.

The sweet birthday girl who turned 20 but look like 15. Say awww. Thats the only pic I have for I didnt bring my camera that day. The other lazy asses refuse to send me the pics. Grrrr.

I have been rejuvenated.

Helluuuu. As the title indicates, I’m on my sem break now. Huhuuu~ Never ending activities since Thursday, my days has been packed with drinking, swimming, eating, shopping, gambling and not forgetting wiiwii. Diu, my muscles are aching like a bitch now.

Kamen and xy entertaining themselves with wii.

Linda dropped by for lunch! Get well soon babe I want oral ahahaha.

Going down the slide was so much fun hee. Especially the ding ding bell hahaha.

Sorry about the scratches.. Hehehehe *inside joke*

Was supposed to be at boston around 6 for the beer fest but, due to the jam and getting lost (omg omg, freaking balakong, mines, seri kembangan), xy and I reached solaris at 8 30 pm.

Met my “new pet bro” and neresh :)

xxx

today’s ei leen's birthday =))

Happy 20th birthday babe! Surprise party for you later~ Kekeke.

I dont want to go through this shit anymore.

Fuck it. Dont talk to me. Im utterly depressed and mood-less. Life sucks. I've disappointed myself. And the worse part is that, I've disappointed my parents. And made them worried sick about me. Why am I such a failure. What have I achieved in my 20 yrs of living? nothing.

I'll get through the hurdles, pa. I'll pick myself up and strive on. This I promise you.

Honeydeww.

Hehehe this is such a cuteeeeeee picture. I like! Can you guess which is me? Heheheheheh irene's expression is damn funny ahhahaha the one furthest to the left.




I'm so not a lab coat person. And yah, I lost mine so the lab coat Im wearing is pretty oversize. L. shesh. If I dont study now, it might even be my last lab session. diu.

2 papers down, 2 more to go.

Presenting to you,


my current favourite hangout place....





Its hip, its cool (more like colddd), Its............












..the library.


Thanks la, biopharmacy 2 is in 6 hours time and I have absolutely no idea what the hell the subject is about. DIUUUUUU. I damn stress la byebye.

Under pressure dum dum dum dum dum.

Somebody help me!

Its less than 11 hours till my physical pharmacy paper starts and yet im here blogging. Its called destressing ok *shifty eyes*

I dont know about you, but recently, I've been eating ALOT due to stress. :(

Its a bad bad thing. The last time i actually lost weight because I was emo. Make me emo pls!

I'm hungry 24/7.

Like this morning, my father kept asking me to study since I was wasting my time eating. But I couldnt stop, for I was hungry. From banana, cake, nuts, pear, chips, pastries, buns, bread, cheeeeeeeeese, biscuits, chocolates OH yeah chocolates, cake etc..

15 minutes later,

"Pa, I cannot study now."

"Why?"

"I'm too full until i feel like vomiting."

=.=


sigh.. i suddenly feel hungry again..

If you seek amy.

If you seek amy- Britney Spears.

Try saying it really fast. I didnt realise it at first until Linda told me that it is actually F-u-c-k me. So creativeeeeeeeee.

Dude, I spent 30 hours in the library for the past 3 days. Give me a break.

Haha I just did a personality test for fun and =O, it actually described me pretty accurately. I'm shocked haha!

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

Well, quite true. I'm not too sure about the people liking me part because Im straightforward. They might hate me for it no?

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Ermm.. yea maybe hahaha.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

Yeah the RIGHT person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

uhh. i think so...

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

I WANT to study hard. Not that i study hard..

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

Yeah i'm so afraid of failing... Pls pls i need to pass... kiasuuu.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

hmm.. yeah i guess...

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

Disappear? Really? Havent really experienced such situations yet but yes i do share my thoughts with my friends.


Have a go! Its such a weird test with random questions asked but nevertheless, its pretty true for me. hahaha.

Wii time yay =D Thanks daddy for encouraging me to fail my finals. haha.

Dont you know you can go be your own miracle?

Greetings.

Its very, very, very early in the morning. And I'm trying to keep myself awake. Let me tell you random things bout me.

I love cheese. The more the better. huhuhu

I love eating seaweed but I dont quite like seafood though its tolerable.

I live to eat.

There is currently a pimple on my face. Its probably due to stress.

I hate my hair and everything about me.

My eyes are 80% blind. Im short sighted yes.

I'm a terrible driver. Yes. My recent mishap cost my dad 2k. Thanks la. I cant park for nuts too. Dont laugh =(

I have OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder). And its getting worse by the day. For eg. I can spend my entire day surfing facebook and just keep refreshing. Its bloody boring. But I just cannot help it. It used to be friendster. The "who viewed me" section. Thank god fb does not implement such nonsense.

I dislike people who fucking bitch abt other even though they barely know the person. DIU i keep getting bitched about. BY A GUY SOMEMORE.

I like looking at desserts. Its makes me very very very happy. So much so, I wouldnt finish everything, I'll just take a bite of everything.

I cant stay angry for long. Most to most, I think i'll just be angry for a max of 2 days or so. By then I wouldnt even quite remember what caused my anger. NO WONDER YOU PEOPLE LIKE TO BULLY ME LA.

I dont like people especially guys who are overconfident. ( who does?) Like those type who comes out from the car with one type of style and I dont know, you can just feel as though they think that they're so hot. Super turn off!

I used to take karate, tennis, ballet and piano lessons. For those who dont know me, I bet you're surprised. =P

I'm bloody lazy and I keep proscrastinating. I hate myself for this. Shit I just reminded myself that I'm currently procrastinating. I will continue this list tmr.

So long, good bye suckers. Mwahx.

I used to rule the world, seas would rise when I gave the word.

Viva La Vida- Coldplay.

Awesome song.

I like that song very much. Ever since the moment I asked xy what is the title of it.

Hmm.. I’m so worn out. Really drained, physically and emotionally. My brain is currently saturated and I still have shit loads to memorise. God help me. Divine help!

Anyway, I’ll only be found in the library this coming days. Its my second home and I NEED to be there. Away from civilization. I cant afford to fail. Like seriously, what have I achieved in these past 20 years? NOTHING. So please please, I need this. I cant be jobless. I cant depend on other people. I dont want bring shame to myself. I have an ego. HAHA.

So yea, Soo Jin’s birthday was last Saturday. Had some drinks at 7 ate 9. The lovely girl is finally 19.

This is hilarious! Ivy was climbing over the table instead of walking across and it was captured on camera.

The powerpuff girls clan!

The girls.

Hahahaha. IVY AGAIN. She broke the glass.

Before leaving, she tried to cover it with feathers after her attempts of making the glass stand failed. AHHAHAA.

K now. Books baby books. Love you books. Damn potong right. kekekee.

Yah i know I look like crap these days. Make up-less, tremendously huge eye bags and dark circles.

I HATE YOU EXAMS!!